Isolation

Having different ideas of god and religion than the mainstream or at least the mainstream of my current peer group is very lonely and isolating. Not only do I have these different perspectives on things but I haven't told my family and friends, for the most part. They know that we aren't going to church and don't really have an intention to return but they don't know that we've questioned the very fabric of our belief in god. I would like to tell them but I want to fully define what I do and don't believe so that I can face their questions. I wish we had some friends that were in the same boat and also questioned it all and don't take everything for face value. It's all too much to carry alone. I'm so thankful that my husband and I are on the same page with all this. It is remarkable. Just two and a half years ago we were going to move to Kansas City so that Chad could attend a Southern Baptist Seminary and become a minister or theologian. Now we both are leaning agnostic. This really could've done a number on our relationship if we hadn't changed together. It's hard enough on us as it is since we are so isolated together and are each other's only outlet. I just hate this isolation so much. It's not that I wish we mindlessly still followed Christianity because that was miserable too but I wish we had someone to share this all with. That we could be open about our belief and cynicism.